Friday, August 14, 2015

I want to see you be brave...

Took the dice for a spin as a player tonight. I notice that I am meticulous about movement. And I'm afraid to move or be brave or take chances. Because I might get yelled at. Everything with me seems to come down to "if I get yelled at." As if anyone would do that. As if it would be so bad. Even though I know it won't happen, the old anxiety is there. Because a long time ago, someone yelling at me scared me so much I stopped breathing... And it takes a lot of work to relearn what we are taught. 

I'm a total dork. ;) 

It was a great battle. Monsters and horses running everywhere and a real fear of my PC dying. I learned I'm not the only GM who has to stop in the middle of a big battle to look for a missing bad guy. 

I had the best time tonight. ;) I always do when I get to be with friends. 

Confidence is hot, right? Is there a chart I can roll on to raise my skill, lol? ^^ 

Tuesday, August 11, 2015


After stepping in to save the Knights of the Dinner Table Live Action Series Premiere at Gen Con, Zombie Orpheus Entertainment has the gratitude of this KoDT fan...and many others. And now they also have a pledge from me. :)

Link to ZOE Patreon page!

This is how good things come out of negative things, right? Have we all learned a lesson today? Good, because I'd really like to keep things educational around here.

Now to go draw a...something. ^^

Saturday, August 08, 2015

KoDT Charity Auction!!!

To help raise money to repay an extremely awesome anonymous donor who helped fly one of the actors to the KoDT LAS premiere at GenCon, Jolly and Barbara Blackburn are holding an eBay charity auction.

These are good people. :)

Here is the LINK.

You can bid on the script, Dave's d20, and photos of Bob and Sheila. Barb is offering custom Character backgrounds for a buy it now price of $20. All proceeds go to the donor with anything left over going to Zombie Orpheus Entertainment to help with party expenses.

Jolly might add other items, too, so keep checking back.

Seriously, these are the best people. ^^

Words are finite

As usual I'm tired and not making a ton of sense, but here we go. I had this big rant planned about the KoDT LAS premiere that was fun to write. I worked on it at the farm in Iowa while drinking a Leinenkugel's. It's actually well written. Better than a lot of my posts. And I deleted it. There are a lot of people already taking care of documenting everything about this. A lot of words written in anger. A lot of anger that I can sympathize with. I didn't finish the entire post because after I got through the initial rage fest, I didn't care about it anymore.

I don't want to use my words up that way. I only get so many words in this life and I want to use them for things like HackMaster adventures and blog posts and emails and texts to friends and dorky Facebook posts about cats. The longer I spend in anger, the more time I waste. And I can't very well be deserving of the gifts I've been given by hanging around in that angry place.

That's not going to be my role in this.

Of Ken Whitman, I'll only say that before backing one of his projects, please do your research and decide for yourself.

Moving on.

Friday, July 31, 2015

One day is not enough

Even if it's one of the best days ever. 

GenCon for the first time since 2009. :)

I went to witness the KoDT Live Action Series premiere. Even though I was a backer, one of two with priority for this event, it was more about showing support for Jolly, Barb, and Kenzer and Company. 

1d10p Premiere Table 
1. Zombie Orpheus Entertainment are legends. When Ken Whitman backed out of the event, ZOE saved it. Stop reading and post a thank you on their Facebook wall or support them on Patreon. 
2. The GenCon staff was incredible. This is now my Official Favorite Con because of the way they reacted to the situation. Professional and compassionate. 
3. Kenzer & Company did all they could to help their fans. That's how they roll. 
4. The actors are fantastic people and perfectly cast. The movie itself is magical stuff. 
5. I have the best movie prop thanks to them and Craig Zipse. :)
6. Two beers in and this is a little sappy, but shut up!
7. I hope the movie does not get trapped in controversy and everyone that wants to gets to see it. 
8. My memory is good. Very good. I won't let anyone else be taken without a fight. 
9. If she says the K word, give Barb a hug. 
10. Jolly can write a fantastic script. Let's hope this isn't the last time we see the Knights live. 
P. Thank you, Dave Kenzer, for the perspective. ;)

Monday, July 27, 2015

If you need help...

I'm tired, so this isn't going to be very good. 

I don't do Facebook drama, so it was a unique experience watching my News Feed blow up this morning with the latest news about the Knights of the Dinner Table Live Action Series. It was all extremely terrible and heartbreaking to watch. And I guess I should join with everyone else saying never give money to Ken Whitman again. It's getting recorded all over the internet by people with bigger audiences than mine. And I don't really want to write about that anyway. The only thing going through my head (apart from dragons, dragons, glitter nail polish, travel anxiety, I'm a little hungry, beer, "shut up and dance with me", and tired) is...I want to write about the people that got hurt. Not the one who did the hurting. He doesn't deserve any more words. 

All I want to say is that Jolly Blackburn is one of the sweetest people I know. He might say otherwise, but he really can draw. ;) He's the best storyteller. And if you're lucky enough to know him, you know how kind this guy is. How he really cares about his fans, this world, these characters. 

Barbara Blackburn lets me talk her ear off at cons and spill out my heart about ridiculous things. ;) Once upon a time we played best friends in an online HackMaster game. Chimi and Gabby 4ever. 

The most at peace I have ever been includes one night at Sarah Con ;) when a bunch of us sat around a campfire in the yard after dark, talking about stuff.  

They've let me cry on their shoulders and sneak into an awards show. They raised the sweetest little girl. They've opened their home to us. I've signed the door to the loft. And who am I but one of a bunch of fans who I am sure have similar stories. 

They are awesome people who deserve to have their movie be seen, to have a fun party on Thursday night, and all the good stuff coming their way. I think they'll get that. They always look for the good, even when it feels like a great time to get angry and hit things. They have a big extended family of fans watching their backs. Looking at that Facebook feed, it was easy to think today was a big drama, but Barb said it was good, too, because it was bringing out all of this support. They got to see who really cared about them. I want to be like that, always finding the upside. So inside of the heartbreak and the terrible, it was great to see all of those voices supporting our friends.

Note from Jolly: KoDT LAS GenCon

"Hey folks, Ken Whitman canceled the After Party out of spite apparently. We are working on a new venue and some entertainment for backers. Now I don't have access to the kickstarter data and Ken's not providing it. So I have no idea who paid/backed for special seating and/or the after party. If you are reading this (and please spread the word because I know a lot of backers don't check here) please contact me at jolly at kenzerco dot com. If we can get a list and get some details (time/place) we'd love to have you and thank you for supporting the project. There are some great folks helping with this effort - I will reveal who they are when they are ready to release the details. All I can say that despite Ken's behavior this is a great industry filled with a lot of great people still. In short - Ken can't take our party away. ;)"

-Via Facebook and Kickstarter

(In case this helps get the word out. If this relates to you, please contact Jolly.) 

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Sunday, July 12, 2015

Tonight's HackMaster session in one sentence...

"Someone out there has a broken goddamn spleen, so get out there and heal them!"


Thursday, July 09, 2015


Comment I posted on the KoDT LAS Kickstarter today:

I’ve been actively involved with Kenzer & Company since about 2003. KoDT was my introduction to their products. I play and promote their game HackMaster. I volunteer to help them out when I can. These are the nicest people in the world. They take care of their fans. This is the worst thing I can think of happening to them, that someone might steal their credibility and worse, betray their trust. 

I backed KoDT at $450 for my husband and I to attend the GenCon premiere and after party. I have not received anything except my KoDT Covers hardcover book. I’m a little surprised I got that at all. Two of my friends also backed at a level to receive the book and actually got TWO copies, when they were only supposed to get one. They returned the second copy to Jolly in exchange for the HackMaster GMG they actually expected and Jolly was able to give that book to another backer, another good friend, who did not receive his. 

My package was supposed to include front row seats to the premiere and admission to the party. I have not received any tickets or emails or any sort of confirmation for either event. I am flying across the country in three weeks to attend this premiere with no assurance that we will be allowed in, apart from knowing Jolly will take care of it. Except this shouldn’t be up to Jolly to take care of. In addition to movie props and more 20 Years of Covers books, Ken has sold front row seats to this event at considerably less than I backed for. How many seats can there be? The venue wasn’t even determined when he started asking for money for those seats. 

When I found out the second part of the series was going to be shown at Nexus, I was upset. I always thought the premiere was set for GenCon. I’ve held off watching any of it to at least make that experience a little bit special.  

Honestly, I didn’t care about rewards. I wanted to help my friends have a dream become reality. I saw the way they lit up when they talked about this. I had the resources at the time to help and wanted to do something good for them. I did not want to finance Ken’s tropical vacation or his new car. I have no proof that is what my money went to, but I have no reason to believe otherwise. 

The lack of consideration for backers of this project is staggering. Banning people from contributing, calling them names, ignoring their questions, and lying are not appropriate methods for dealing with an angry customer. I don’t know that this project was ever intended to be reality. I can imagine Ken either thinks he’s going to pull this off or is sitting at home putting off thinking about it in the hope it will all go away. 

Truth is, even if he does pull it off, I’d never support another project from him based on the way he treats people. I’m sorry my friends have gone through this. He used and abused them. Ken Whitman does not deserve another thought from us. 

Tuesday, July 07, 2015

Dice of the Day

I don't care what Starbucks says about ice cubes. I know dice when I see them. 

Thursday, July 02, 2015

Live blogging HackMaster!!

Sort of. I guess its not live blogging if I don't post to the blog until the game is over.

So far we've determined that vanilla wafers make good emergency mini bases. Kill the monster, eat the base.

We need to talk about your animal companion. She's huge and she's eating all the food. 

They found Uncle Dil's diary. 

"I swear at the door." Takene didn't find the secret door. 

Can we poke it with a stick? Hells yeah. 

Me: Skeletons!
Dwarf: Meh. 
Goddamn it. 

Because the game is the perfect time to trim the cat's claws... ^^

We're going to hold hands and do the safety walk through this cavern. Cue "Ghouls Just Wanna Have Fun."

Oh no, not the fucking coupons... (There's a story here.) 

"Well, I was an internationally ranked player..." (And another story...)